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How come life be so unfair? When people around me are so happy meanwhile, I'm not? How come life be so unfair? When there are a lot of smar people around me, yet I'm the only one who's stupid? How come life be so unfair? When they got what they want, meanwhile I don't? How come life be so unfair? When people do have skills, and I don't? How come life be so unfair? When people around me are good looking, and I'm not? How come life be so unfair? When smart, good looking people, have a lot of friends. And yes, I don't. How come life be so unfair? When they have their partner, but here I am standing alone? How come? Life must be unfair.

Saturday, October 6th 2018. 07:45 AM I sided the curtain of my window, then effortlessly opened up both of my crack windows. A fresh air and a small sun shines came into my room. Breathed in, breathed out. I tried to calm myself down from last night, yeah, I cried again. With the same reason. A thesis. I asked myself, why I'm so freaking stupid. I couldn't think that much. I couldn't think out of the box. How can I solve all these problems which are messed up. Until the thesis proposal project came. I exploded. I looked at my friends, compared to them, which is wrong. I mean, myself, and what I did is wrong. It was triggering me a lot. How can people did it so easily meanwhile I'm struggling a lot? Am not capable of anything?